never end

before i sleep, i always hoping that tomorrow you are going to be mine,but it doesnt change anything. should i keep hoping like this? we have been through many things together. after 3 years, you leave me without any reason and i didnt aspect that i will be like this when i lose you. i know i keep hurt you, i just hope that we still can be together again like before, like our 4 months relationship. i care for you, protect you like siblings, lend you my shoulder like bestfriend, tease you like husband and wife, and calm you down like anyone doesnt.i always hoping that one day i will die in your arms, and that moment i just wanted to say that i always love you no matter how hard i try,and i hope that you gonna care about me like i gonna die after that, this is what i feel this time and i hope you understand what im trying to say even you never be mine again, even you hate me as much as well , even you try to throw me away from your life, this is what i felt all this time. let me die trying than do nothing, I LOVE YOU